Chapter 43

Chapter 43
I was holed up in a warded room, agonizing over it .
I moaned and squatted on the bed when I fell and hit my side .
Maybe it was the stress that was bothering me too much, but I got a mysterious stomach ache .
When I got up and thought about it, I felt that I was somehow helpless, and I piled up Ortem and made a tower on impulse, and I almost died because It fell down on me .
I’ve been holed up for six hours now, but I can’t think of anything good to do .
I thought of something, but no matter how I scramble, I can’t help but feel sorry for Gizel .
I’m starting to think that I don’t care anymore even if I marry Gizel .
There’s some resistance now, but maybe I’ll get used to it .
It’s just the way the world is . I’ll apologize to Shibi .
No, but … really, is that all right?
It’s something I’ve been worried about all this time, but Gizel is almost dependent on me .
There’s even a theory that I’m codependent because I just can’t see it myself .
Gizel had been following me almost since she was born .
I guess the reason she’s acting like a brocon now is because he didn’t have a decent relationship with anyone but me .
It’s my fault that I didn’t pay much attention to the bad habits of the Marrens .
The theory that my ancestors were severely Siscon started to grow inside me .
In short, Gizel just had a very narrow field of vision .
If only Gizel had looked around more, she could have found someone else to like .
In addition to the fact that it’s not the same as my memory of my previous life, Gizel’s 14 years of living with me is all that matters to her .
I don’t want to think too much about it, though .
Gizel was even more exclusive than me, a magic recluse .
For Gizel, both Shibi and Firo were just acquainted with her brother .
Originally, I should have made my move earlier, I couldn’t think of anything else besides “I’m troubled because my little sister is cute . ”
It was stupid .
If I had thought about it more deeply, I would have had more opportunities to notice cultural differences and differences in consciousness .
I know it’s not the right place for me to say this after all this time .
I know, but that’s why I don’t think it’s a good idea to just let it drag on .
If I don’t do this, Gizel is going to have no real connection to anyone but me .
In the long run, It’s definitely not going to be a good thing .
I have to get out of this village .
It’s the only way .
My father is very eager to hold the ceremony, and since he believes so much in Marren culture, he won’t listen to me no matter how much I tell him .
To top it off, Gizel is totally on board .
I’ve always wanted to see the world outside the village for a long time .
It’s sad, but maybe it was just the right opportunity .
It’s forbidden in the village, but I’m afraid I’ll have to break it .
I closed my eyes, cut the air, and prayed to the spirits of my ancestors .
This is enough to forgive a lot of the mischief in the Marren village .
Our ancestors were generous .
I used my thick Ortem as a desk and wrote on a piece of paper .
My father and mother, and then a note to Gizel .
I wrote about how I only have feelings for Gizel as a sister and how I’m sorry for that, as well as my anxiety about Gizel dependence on me .
And finally, I added, “I’ll be out there getting married, or I’ll be back when I hear the news that Gizel is getting married . ”
…… I’ll go out of the room temporarily to prepare for the long trip .
There was also a simple map of the area in the Chief’s mansion .
… I’ll just impolitely borrow it and head to the nearest city .
I can use the Ortem Trolley for transportation .
Quickly, I have to load up on preserves and things that could be converted to gold .
The sooner I get out, the better .
Time could shake my decision, and if my father found out, he could tie me to a board and hold me in place .
Besides, if Gizel cries on me, I’ll probably break .
Hiding the letter on my desk, I left the room .
”Brother, you’ve finally come out! I mean, are you okay? After all, you don’t look so good…”
At the front of the room was Gizel .
It must have been more than six hours ago when I entered, but I wondered if she had been standing at the door the whole time .
In the past, it could have been adorable, but this is still not good . That’s definitely not a good sign .
“I, I’ll just go to the Chief’s house for a while”
“In that case, I’m going too to escort you!”
“……No, it’s complicated . Let me go on my own . ”
“Eh………… . ”
Gizel’s expression froze .
Sheesh .
Up until now, I had never said anything bad for Gizel to hear, so there’s no need for her to leave even once .
It was only the other day that I tried to talk to my father about Gizel .
“Actually, there’s something I’ve been thinking about my father lately . I want to talk to the Chief about it . With Gizel around, it might be hard for the Chief to do it . ”
“About father’s?”
“Oh, yes . It’s about the incense leaf . Apparently, the Chief has been wielding the Karlco family at will, so he’s afraid of having power concentrated in one house by assets…… As a matter of fact, I happened to overhear a bad rumor about father the other day . It’s just a rumor… is what I think… but we need to make sure we have a firm report at the earliest opportunity so there’s nothing dark behind it . ”
“Is that so…… At this important period…”
I’m sure Gizel had an idea .
Gizel tightly grabbed the hem of her dress and bit her lip .
She seemed to be convinced for the time being .
The guilt is great, but I managed to dodge it nicely .
I have set my father up as a typical petty villain, but I can’t help it .
In hindsight, Gizel would soon find out it was a misunderstanding .
Maybe he’s just happy with the fact that he’s suddenly getting a lot of money and people around him are starting to praise him .
There’s nothing to be concerned about .
“I’m sorry . ”
I put my hand on Gizel’s shoulder and walked past it .
“Brother . ”
A few steps away, he was called off .
“What is it?”
I stopped in my tracks and turned around .
Relax . Gizel shouldn’t have any suspicions .
”That’s why brother… you’ve been troubled lately, haven’t you?
“Eh? Ah, Ahhhhh……”
I bit my tongue unthinkingly in surprise at the way he spoke as if he was confirming it .
It’s okay . Don’t panic .
It’s a guilty conscience that makes me upset by a single word .
The identity of the ghost, the seeing and withering silver flower grass, is something I used to say even in my previous life .
When you’re scared, everything seems to make sense .
I cough lightly and take a gesture that says something is wrong with my throat .
It was an appeal that he was not at a loss for words because he had something dark behind him .
“… A-Ah, Yeah…… That’s right……”
”I hope father is innocent…… I’ll be waiting for you when you get back . I’m sure you’re not in great shape, so take care not to collapse on the way . Don’t force yourself, and turn around as soon as it gets tough, okay?”
“… R-right, right . Sorry to worry you . ”
I turned around and walked out of the house to go to the Chief’s mansion .
Good, I got through it .
It seems that there is no reason to be suspicious after all .
Nonetheless, I’m glad the lies and acting came through .
I thought I wouldn’t make it since I couldn’t make eye contact with her, but Gizel didn’t seem to mind .
That’s about the only thing that bothers me .
This kind of skill at bargaining may be due to the difference in experience in a previous life .
If I got to the city, It wouldn’t be a bad idea to try to become a famous actor .
I’m curious how much knowledge this world has on this type of culture, though .