Chapter 135 Past and Presen
The Xia elders left after visiting Xia Meilin. Within the same day, Xia Meilin was advised by the doctor that she should not tire herself out for the sake of her growing babies. After that, she was discharged.
Dong Hua and Zhao Junxu were the ones who accompanied her home.
To be honest, Xia Meilin was nervous. She regained the memories she made with the kind Lu Yifeng and she couldn't help but find it weird. Was he really like that or was he just acting? She was scared to know.
When they entered the villa, Xia Meilin felt her heart beating so fast and loud as if it was going to jump out of her chest. It was the same place where Lu Yifeng caged her. She was afraid, she never wanted to go back to this place.
She entered the mansion and everyone greeted her. Little Melon came running towards her. "Welcome home, momma!"
Xia Meilin felt uneasy when she stared at Little Melon. It's been so long since she last saw him. He was still small... the cheerful personality he has was the same as in her past life. But that bright and bubbly personality was erased by Lu Yifeng.
She bit her lower lip as she tried her best not to cry. She's been crying a lot so lately, she couldn't control her feelings, why was she so sensitive?
"Momma?" Little Melon called out to her.
Xia Meilin kneeled in front of him and pulled him into a hug. "Xiao Gua..."
Little Melon blinked a few times, he thought that she was greeting him with a hug so he hugged her back.
They stayed like that for a while before she pulled away from him.
"Mello has to feed Timmy, momma. Let's play later." He grinned at her before he run off to the garden.
Xia Meilin sighed. That boy was definitely one fluff ball full of energy. She missed seeing him that way.
She walked around the house until her feet took her to Lu Yifeng's room... it was the room she shared with him.
She clenched her fists as she looked at his room, it was the same as back then. This was usually where she got locked up and forced by him. He would punish whenever she made a mistake or whenever she angers him. The room was filled with her cries.
While recalling her past life, another memory suddenly flashed in front of her as if she was watching something in front of her.
It was the memory of her present self, this room was filled with laughters and smiles. Lu Yifeng would always dry her hair and brush it every night, he would say sweet words to her and flatter her well. This was the where they also made love.
How? How can the her in this world forgive him?
It was because the him in this world was different from the Lu Yifeng she knows.
She walked towards the balcony and saw the beautiful garden maze below. There was a secret passage way there, by using it, she almost escaped Lu Yifeng. But in the end, he still managed to find her. She saw the garden maze as a way to escape but as she looked at it, it was also where everything started for her present self and with the Lu Yifeng of this world. It was where she finally decided to give him a chance.
Two memories, her past and present life. It was confusing her but at the same time, she couldn't help but doubt her newly gained memories of her present self.
Should she wait for him to come back and find out about it or should she run away now? But where would she run? Her son was here, she can't just leave him here with Lu Yifeng. She refused to believe that Lu Yifeng was really different in this world. One way or another, the moment he would snap out, it'll turn to be just like before. He will definitely torture her.
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Lu Yifeng followed Xia Meilin to their place but instead of approaching her, he went to his study. If it was really her then... he will need to maintain his distance from her. He doesn't want to frighten her. He closed his eyes and recalled the way she looked at him, this made his chest tight. That look was something he feared the most, seeing it from her... made him feel like he fell into a dark pit.
Just when everything was going well... He covered his face with his hand and sighed heavily.
If it will be like this, then that's okay. Now he can really mend the mistakes he did to her. Even if she will hate him again, he will never stop loving her. He will prove to her that he was not the same person she once knew.
The room's door suddenly went open and there stood Xia Meilin. She was surprised when she saw him there. She thought that he was still at his work.
She was planning to get something from his table but she never expected that she'll see him there.
Lu Yifeng stared at her, just by looking at her, he knew what she was planning. She was planning to get the gun that was hidden in his table. Was she trying to escape or was she trying to kill herself again?
It pained him to see her frightened when she saw him.
"I... I'm sorry." Xia Meilin was afraid that he'll get angry that she went in his study without a permission from him.
Lu Yifeng straightened his back. To stop her from fearing him, he smiled at her and acted like he doesn't know what was happening. "You're back."
Xia Meilin instantly shrank back when she saw him smile. She finds it scary and weird at the same time. Lu Yifeng doesn't smile, why was he smiling at her?
She gulped nervously. What should she tell him? That she wanted to get his gun? "I want to live with grandma and grandpa."
"Okay."
His answer startled her. He said okay? He didn't gave her a glare and he looked fine with it!
As if testing the waters, she said: "I want to bring Xiao Gua with me."